Something shifted almost immediately after pressing publish on my last post. I talk about pressing publish all the time. Which, unless you blog, you may not understand. But it’s similar to the window ledge. Pressing publish and jumping.
When I press publish, there is a sense of empowerment that happens. Sort of like saying “I choose.” And over the last two days, I’ve been choosing to step out of the window and down from the ledge.
I thought about writing it down, so I could remember how to do it next time. Because I’m learning, there is usually always a next time. Otherwise it wouldn’t be called practice. There will be another window ledge moment.
I have this habit. I used to not even see it. Now I see it, but at the same time, still see myself doing it and wonder if I will ever stop. Or what thought I might have that finally releases me from this habit’s grip.
I remember Tom Stone saying something like 80% of our sensory perception is affected by sight. I really notice this when I sit quietly and close my eyes. How I sense and what I’m aware of is inner directed instead of being stimulated by what my eyes are constantly taking in and processing.
Alanis dropped a lil bomb on me yesterday while I was walking in my neighborhood. And I couldn’t help but smile to myself as I strolled in the California sunshine, reminded about a recent conversation on discovering the initial curiosity for wanting to pause and take a closer look at the larger concept of fear.
“Fear is so subtle and slippery” she said. “I wanted to get around it, over it, through it, but I didn’t really know what it was. I could intuitively feel a barrier to my total health, but the barrier itself remained illusive to me.”
What is Fear?
It’s a good question. Take moment. And another.
Did you consider “What fear? I’m really not afraid of much.” Great! And good for you. Seriously. Stop reading. The rest of this will bore you. It will no longer be interesting from this point forward.
If, however, you have ever wondered how and what fear is connected to in your life, you are in the right place!
Harder to Ignore
If you look around our world today, fear is getting louder and harder to ignore. Most of the time, some kind of crisis unfolds in our life, calling us inward to be fearless with ourselves. Figuring out how to be happy. Telling our self truths. Truths that sometimes don’t match what others might think is best or better or right or wise or whatever.
I just had a powerful conversation with another coach (Aaron Brown) in my neighborhood. We met at a networking function a few months ago and he called me to check-in on how my practice is going and whether or not it’s thriving and I had to admit that I feel as if I and my practice are barely surviving.
I am very ‘new’ at being self-employed having started my own full-time coaching practice this past January. I am leveraging 20 years of business/corporate experience, yet at the same time, awakened in every moment to the awareness that “we’re not in Kansas anymore Toto.”
