This post is about the high cost of saying Yes to wrong-for-you people.
I had been asking the universe for some confirmation, on what I was about to do; the decision I had come to.
This year has been such a painful learning process around discovering the value of working with people who strengthen me. Painful sometimes is needed so we can really get it.
I won’t say I don’t mind the pain, because I do. I’m human and would prefer it to be different.
I’m not gonna tell you that I’ve been able to put that pain aside because I now know what it has been diligently working to reveal to my awareness.
And How To Take It Personally
If you follow me on Facebook, yesterday I unfriended at least half of you with the invitation that if you don’t know me personally, you can “like” my Fanpage instead. Even if most of my status updates yesterday said 99% got axed, it’s really not quite that bad.
Why did I axe everyone?
Loving axed! (Can you tell?) Playing and having fun is sometimes the best way to bounce. When I allow myself to feel into playfulness and fun, I am more naturally able to let go of the things that are no longer serving me. I take the hard out and put the fun in.
It’s quiet. Not dead quiet of course because, per usual, I’m sorting things out (with myself) up here on this breezy window ledge. Only this time, I’m using pen and paper…
Dear Jedi,
I wanted to talk with you today about my need to be persuasive. And how often it shows up.
I’ve had a few challenging moments with relationships in particular the last year or so. And I’m noticing how hard I’m working at being persuasive. I guess with the wrong people. And I guess, in the larger scope, the need to be persuasive at all kinda points at something else entirely, doesn’t it?
Jedi: All of your power is Now (right now). Now (right now).
Me: But I have good reason to feel this way… all these blog posts and stuff; I can tell you the story of how horrible it is…
Jedi: You’re right. You should feel bad. But feel bad and then do your best to help yourself feel good. All of your power is Now. Now is your point of attraction.
What would make you feel more comfortable right NOW?
Attention Frequent Flyers!
Mercury has officially entered it’s regularly scheduled “out of phase” cycle of moondancing backwards in the sky (or at least it looks like that) otherwise known as Mercury Retrograde.
It’s time for re-doing everything and basically no initiating what-so-ever (consider yourself warned) nor barely a hint of forward movement on the irons in your campfire.
I dread Mercury retrograde the most for all its technical snafus and basic overall “STOPNESS” he hurls at my life during this three week period (April 18 thru May 11).
Communications of every kind are subject to general snarlification. Details details details. Watch them. Pay closer than usual attention to them. And watch your backend as unfinished ones will sneak up and bite!
Have you ever wanted to jump out of a 5-story window instead of facing what you know you need to face in order to get back to your best self?
Well I’m there.
It’s been a very long two weeks since I last posted on my blog. Granted, my creative mojo has been focused on designing web presences for a couple of new clients, I’m finding it’s about all the mojo I can muster up. I have none to spare. The cupboard feels empty.
I am grateful that creativity can be alive and well in my world, even when I’m not writing, but I miss it. A lot.
